After her husband's death, Molly Peacock realized she was not living the received idea of a widow's mauve existence but instead was experiencing life in all colors. These gorgeous poems--joyful, furious, mournful, bewildered, sexy, devastated, whimsical and above all, moving--composed in sonnet sequences and in open forms, designed in four movements (After, Before, When, and Afterglow)--illuminate both the role of the caregiver and the crystalline emotions one can experience after the death of a cherished partner. With her characteristic virtuosity, her fearless willingness to confront even the most difficult emotions, and always with buoyancy and zest, Peacock charts widowhood in the twenty-first century.
From "Touched: "
After you died, I felt you next to me,
and over months you entered gradually
into that lake and disappeared. Not gone,
but so internalized you're not next to me.